Adrift

It’s been almost a year and a half since I’ve written a blog.

There are reasons for that, but in the scheme of things, those reasons merely amount to excuses. Looking back, I fear there is only one that makes sense- I’ve been exhausted.

And not just the “I wish I’ve been getting enough sleep” kind of exhaustion. But, the kind where bedtime is my favorite time of the day because I don’t have to worry about relationships, face the loss of loved ones, deal with daily expectations…

It can be likened to the feeling of being on a boat- any kind of boat- with no way to control it. No sail, no oar, no motor. Thankfully, it floats, but you hardly control the direction it travels. You call yourself the Captain of the boat (because it’s your life), until there is a keen awareness of the delusion that entails.

After a while, land can be spotted on the horizon. It’s close enough to drop the anchor and stop traveling aimlessly…the pause helps you remember that you come from a long line of survivors or you would not exist. That you are beautifully and wonderfully made.

Breathe it in. There is still a ways to travel.

There is still you.

You

“All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost; the old that is strong does not wither, deep roots are not reached by the frost.” – JRR Tolkien

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” -Philippians 4:13